Lord, I know...

I know I’m not perfect and that I’ll never be,

I know life isn’t easy and that’s the way it’s meant to be.

Yes, to die is easy and to live is a challenge.

I know I fail you but I’m sure again it will happen.

You are my Lord and I want no one else to be.

I know You love me and I can always count on Thee.

But yet I’m often blind and Lord please help me see.

The world is so cruel, I’m tired please set me free.

I know I’m often scared, You’d say “Don’t be, my child I’m there!”

I know You’ll never leave me, because You love You care!

You have a plan for me, but often I choose to flee,

Yet Lord You’re never angry, You keep protecting me!

Lord I’m sorry, I’m vulnerable, not strong as I wanna be.

Now I pray, down on my bended knees,

"I want to live my life for your sake and for your glory.

Grant me your wisdom your strength, and help me to repent.

Because I know…Lord I want to make you happy

and want you to be proud of me! "

Gabriel's 8 months 'n 10 days

Gabriel's calling "Mom, Mom" a lot these days and I'm real thrilled. He loves clapping his hands. He's also learning to say lots of words like"silly, silly...and (nap)py." Dave and I really enjoy watching him grow!

Rejoice in the Lord always!

I'm having a cold at the moment! Yeah, for those people who know me could possibly imagine Jean going around with red nose, swollen watery eyes and messy hairdo... What makes it worse is that I cannot take any cold medicine! Why? Cuz I'm breastfeeding! Gabriel knows there's something wrong with Mommy and he just wants to be with me and wants to cuddle the whole time while I have to try my best not to kiss him, which is not easy. When I was preparing his solids for him in the kitchen, I sneezed about 3 times, and I turned to him after that. Of course he was looking at me with his eyebrows raising, then he smiled and said "Ha-chu!" to me and started to laugh. That wasn't nice, but I started to laugh too. I turned to him and said, " you shouldn't tease Mommy, you should say God bless you, Mommy!" No wonder why Jesus loves the kids...They can make you SOOOOO happy even in a hard time!

My first Mother's day

After feeding Gabriel his solids yesterday morning, we dropped some Masaman Beef and rice by a friend's place who's recovering from a car accident.(http://news.ninemsn.com.au/article.aspx?id=261222) Then we headed off to Central Coast to celebrate Mother's day with the family. We went to Hog's Breath Cafe for lunch and then went to the Lawson's to visit Don, (Yvette's husband) who's having a bad back and didn't make it to lunch. Then we stopped by Grandpa and Grandma's for a short visit since it'd been a long time since they've moved into this house. It was good to see that they're settling in well, and the house lookin' quite nice. We left the Central Coast at around 4 and Junior had his little nap on the way home. It was a beautiful day! Today (Sunday) I slept pretty much the whole morning cuz I coughed all night and didn't have a good sleep. So thankful that Dave's been lookin' after Gabriel and played with him when I was asleep. Now that I'm awake, it's his turn to have a nap. My poor husband!! Gabriel's now playing in his playpen and I'm sitting in the office. Well, I just heard him calling, "Dad, Dad" so I've better go out and play with him before he wakes Daddy's up.

Winter is coming!

Time flies! The weather is getting colder and colder already. I'm having a cold at the moment, I'm also coughing and my eyes are sore. I just pray that the Lord will look after us, especially Dave and little Gabi cuz I'll hate to see them sick. At night we have to make sure we put extra layers on Gabriel, cuz he'd kick the blankets away and move around the cot. We also put little booties on him, which never last the night cuz he's such a little wiggly worm. Gabi's learning to say more words. Yesterday, when it was his bath time, he kept saying "Pom-pam, Pom-pam," so I grabbed the camera and took a short video. Please click here to view the short video clip.

Grandma & Grandpa Visiting

It's awesome to have Grandma and Grandpa visiting us this weekend, they haven't seen us for nearly 2 months. Today we also had Charlie, Cherry, Fiona and Dave over for lunch, we had a good time. I think it's good for Gabriel that we have visitors from time to time so that he's used to having more people around than just the two of us. Dave bought him a new high chair and he's enjoying it. He's also got jeans on today and it's his first time wearing jeans, lookin' quite cute.

My beautiful sleep

We broke Gabriel's routine completely when we went to Thailand and we were so worried that it would take a long time to put him back to it and it'd be hard for him to sleep through the night again. Thankfully we were given a book called "Save our sleep" by our friends Alan and Saranya Fillery, which really has helped and it only took Gabriel less than a week to sleep through the night after we got back to Australia. Gabriel has two soft toys in his cot; a puppy from Nanna (Ja)Nette and Pooh Bear from Aunty Hong, which he plays with before bed and in the morning before the feed. Today he is 7 months, 3 weeks and 1 day old. He's got two bottom teeth already and the top two are on their way. He loves his bath time before bed and loves to listen to mommy singing "Jesus loves me" to him. Gabriel also enjoys our prayer time, he'd listen carefully to what Mommy prays and sometimes he smiles and would peacefully fall asleep after that. Can't thank God enough for this little BLESSING...

My little Model

It was a nice day today, took Gabriel out to the front porch and took some pictures of him. I felt like I wasn't even there, he was too busy playing with his little bear and looking around. I think he's gonna make a cute model!

Daddy

Gabriel learned to say "Mom-Mom" when we were in Thailand, which was when he was about 4 months old. The word "Mummy" seems to be too precious for him and he wouldn't use it easily-only when it's critical. (hehe) These days he enjoys calling his dad with his unique accent, "Dad, " or "Daddi" He gets a bit upset everyday when daddy walks out from home to go to work. At night when I put him to bed, he'd always ask to see David. We're praying that Dave will be able to change a shift or find a new job then life might be a bit easier. Oh well, only God knows!